a whole month

tomorrow marks the one month mark for unblogging by me. so i figured i'd beat the mark and post now. if other people can take a break for a month from blogging, then so can i. haha.

i've been incredibly swamped with life lately. all my classes have kept me busy with deadlines every night of the week. i can tell my semester will be a busy one. i started track too and so i dont get home until five everyday. and then two hours of homework each day at least puts me at 7:00 a.m. to 7:00 p.m. days everyday. then add in other things like church music which takes up around 8 hours a week mixed in and hanging out with my friends when i can which is quite important also. for those of you who know me well enough, you would know that i hate being busy and i value unscheduled time above any other way to spend time. so my life logically should be a living hell right now. but actually i cannot think of many other times that i've been happier and more content. God has given me a full plate and it feels like every time i step up and perform, im pleasing God. I think that spiritually i'll be growing a ton in the next few months. which is ironic because you would think that being busy would leave less time for God. definitely not. the less time i have, the more i use it to please God and the more valuable it is to me. I have had to start seeing God in all i do because it becomes so apparent that He's right there watching me. not like some creeper, obviously. God's not a creeper, thats not my point. My point is... actually i dont have a point. except i guess that living for God is what it sounds like: living life through and for God. because otherwise i'd be screwed. Living life purely for the sake of searching for happiness will bring nothing at all. forget about all the stuff you want and all the stuff you dont have. forget about how confusing girls are and how dumb guys are. forget about what hurts and start living. life should not be an event, it should be an action. one big action for God.

so i dont think many people will read this since everyone has probably forgotten that this blog exists. but whatever.

Psalm 66 and Proverbs

Shout with joy to God, all the earth!
Sing the glory of His name; make His praise glorious!
Say to God, "how awesome are Your deeds! So great is your power that Your enemies cringe before You. All the earth bows down to You; they sing praise to You, they sing praise to Your name."


To man belong the plans of the heart, but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue.

In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.


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"The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; may the name of the Lord be praised."

"If anyone would come after me, he must deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me."

How does one take up a cross daily? that doesnt sound very easy to me. in fact it sounds quite painful. and thats exactly the point. if our spiritual lives are easy then we have not denied ourselves. we cant just do it once a week on Sunday. there is a key word in this sentence: DAILY. every day we're supposed to wake up and serve God. its not a part-time job. its a 24-7 job. its our identity. wow. thats a tall order. "I can do everything through Him who gives me strength." through Him. thats why we must deny ourselves. daily.

A sonnet for the Broncos loss

i had to write a sonnet for english. im not actually a freak. but it turned out good and the broncos' loss was my inspiration. so here it is.

Struck down are dreams of glory now in pain

Once cherished in the west but now has died

The efforts crushed and now will faint in vain

And no more lives the glory like a tide

To rise to fame and bask in all again

And overtake the sand and wash the toes

Of friends who bleed and watch for them to fend

But back the tide does fall with ghastly blows

And all the friends whose creeks true and just

Flow not into the tide where needed but

Go dry because the enemy does thrust

A sword into the heart where they do cut

Oh woe to us in this where life has turned

The tide does fall and all our hopes are burned

tear. someone hold me.

Poor Connor

as you know, connor's stuff got stolen in costa rica. among the stolen items was his credit card. so he decided to cancel the account, to which his blog account was connected. soooooooooo, if you want to read his blog, too bad. its gone. dead. deceased. in turmoil. not here. sorry. wasnt that a great post especially after my little posting drought? yes i thought so too.

SWEEEEEEEEEEET

BRONCOS FIRST ROUND BYE AND NUMBER 2 SEED IN THE POST SEASON!!!!!!!!!!!

HURR WE COME SAN DIEGO.


oh boy. thats exciting.

ok a real post. finally

sorry it has been awhile since i've done a real post. sorry everyone. oh well. so today i was in the shower and i remembered a prayer request from one of my friends. i started praying but i felt really icky. i felt all sinful and dirty because lately i have not been up to par spiritually. i asked God, "how can i pray for other people when im so jacked up myself?" a few seconds later a little voice said, "I have made you righteous. Come before Me." oh man that made me cry. i do not cry. except when God makes me cry. which actually He does routinely. but other than that i do not cry. not even when people die or at funerals. so that was really cool and if you're feeling guilty about something and you're running from God, dont worry about it because He's already taken care of it. and thats all.